My privilege

The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are.

Joseph Campbell

This is the third time I have done this blog. This one blog. I think the ones that didn't have the right message have been abandoning ship. NO pictures or artwork for this one. I didn't have my cell phone with me which is why I was where I was in the first place. There are no accidents. 

I am aware that I have the privilege of living in a beautiful place, having a job I enjoy. And having friends that help me out. I can only hope to return the favor. I have a talent that I can use to the benefit of my church, and the causes I want to help with.  My passion for gardening allows me to help other people create gardens that can reach their potential. 

I continue to talk in this blog about how grateful I am, because everyday something happens that reminds me that I am in the perfect place, at the perfect time, doing exactly what I need to be doing, even when I think I am in the wrong place at the wrong time.

Today I discovered a tunnel under the freeway on the west side of Macy's that leads to Old Town Sacramento. It was built that way, there are signs. I left my cell phone at my friend Loras this weekend and Lora and I were meeting across from the Holiday Inn, in downtown Sac, and I wasn't sure what that meant. In the process of circumventing the hotel, I discovered the tunnel. I must take a walk with the little dog and see where it leads, how far the walk is and what is over there. 

Discovery and adventure are a privilege. 

Gratitude

To be without some of the things you want is an indispensable part of happiness.

Bertrand Russell

Life has it's moments. Good days and bad, smooth roads and bumpy passages, minor challenges and and huge obstacles, times of still water and smooth sailing. I love this quote, it really speaks to my life. I do without things that most people would balk at. 

Out the back door

But I live here. 

For every bad day, bumpy passage,huge obstacle or patch of still water, I can walk out my back door and look at the river. I close my eyes and hear more birds than I can name. I listen to the quail.  I have a pair of great horned owls that live in our neighborhood: they roost in OUR trees. Every night Orion is out my front door. In the summer, most nights there is a cool delta breeze. I have a garden that feeds my soul. I have ample space to be creative. I have a variety of wonderful people in my life, a job I love, and a wonderful landlord who is also my friend. 

I don't have a lot of fancy stuff and gadgets, and life is hard sometimes because I choose to do without a full time job ( I have stopped looking: exercise in futility ). If I had it all, I would be bored.

But I live here, and I am so very grateful. 

The Power of Friendship

A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself.

Jim Morrison

Medusa Sun 2015

My friend Q and I met in a life drawing class at Diablo Valley College in Pleasant Hill California. We had been looking at each others work for a couple of classes, and one day I was at an easel behind her, and commented that I wished I had a style like hers. She said "I wish I could draw like you." We have been friends ever since. Q introduced me to Prisma Color Pencils and a lot of other things for which I am eternally grateful. I have never looked back. I have tried other mediums, but I prefer to work with point media: pencils, ink. And mixed media felt tip pens, watercolor washes but all with a point media for detal. This sun is Prisma Color marker, Prisma pencils, Farber Castille brush point markers, and Micron Pigma Black pens. 

When we first met, in our early twenties, one of the things we did was take off in one of our Bugs (We both had VW Bugs) and go drawing. Q's style is much flatter than mine, and when we would sit down and draw the same view or the same still life you could tell it was the same thing but the styles were 180 degrees apart. She really opened my eyes to looking at the world in a different way. Then, one of the tools she used was this round point drawing and caligraphy pen: the ink was in a cartridge that you changed when it ran out. Very fluid and sometimes very messy because they would occasionally leak. We would draw straight onto the paper. It required really being in tune with what you were drawing, and really paying attention. It also required being able to adjust away from absolute reality when things drifted a bit and creating the scene to fit. I don't use that kind of pen anymore, but I still like to go out and draw what is in front of me, with a pen, because it is a form of meditation. 

For my birthday this year She gave me this amazing bracelet. This is the Thank You card I am sending to her. Thank you for everything else as well, Q. Meeting you changed my life in the best way. 

Spring is here, or at least it feels like it.

"The more a woman likes her job, the better her self-image and the more she enjoys her life."

Grace Baruch

I have actually had a lot of jobs I have enjoyed. But the ones I have liked the most are the ones that have to do with creativity & art, and gardening, plants & animals. AND they seem to be interchangeable. I would rather spend time in the garden than almost anything else. Surrounded by life and growing things, Inside when I am drawing, or creating, to me it is growing something. I am creating an image from a little seed all the way through to the full grown final image. And sometimes I start withe something familiar, and it changes and becomes its own unique image. this sun is a good 

 example of that. The sun images go way back to when I was in high school. Most of them were full frontal faces and then I did a Sun and Moon image with this half profile and the front view combined. It turned into a signature image and the varieties have been endless. 

So right now one of the things that is good is I have an interesting job, that I enjoy doing. I am making a concerted effort to do artwork in the morning again -- putting some of the other things on the back burner, and I am getting ready to put in the 2015 vegetable garden. Life feels wonderful and I hope it goes on for a long time. 

Letting go

"Man should not consider his material possessions his own, but as common to all, so as to share them without hesitation when others are in need."

-- Thomas Aquinas

I have, over my life, created quite a bit of artwork. I have given half of it away. It has always seemed the right thing to do. I will barter, but most of the time if a good friend really likes a piece, then they get to take it home. The other half of my work is sitting in flat files and under my bed, or in large boxes. I have of late been trying to send thank you notes that are hand drawn. That is what this series of suns are. Thank you notes to good friends. 

Citrus Sun

Duality Sun

Each one is different. I don't over think them and I don't spend 60 hours on them, but I do try to make them clean and concise. 

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Recently I had an epiphany about material possessions that is going to allow me to start relieving myself of a few unessential items. Now anyone who has been to my house knows that I have a lot of ... STUFF. Collectables, glass bottles, Chotkies everywhere. A lot of family and sentimental items. Jewelry goes on and on. I collect stuff to use in reuse projects. I am so far behind on projects that it is depressing and that is exactly what it is doing: depressing me. So I am going to start liquidating the collection. I am anticipating freedom. 

Well, OK, so where have I been?

If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.

Lao Tzu

Flower Sun 15-1

I think that perhaps realizing change is necessary and really acting on it requires a certain type of person. Most of the time we are forced to change by circumstances or events beyond our control. But one of the things this quote addresses is we often end up exactly were we planned to go, but not where we want to go. We end up in places from habit, not from intent. That would be me. A life of habit. Now, however, I am making an effort to live with intent and it is a bit messy. That is one of the things I believe about change: Change is messy. It requires sorting, discarding and reorganizing. Change involves giving away, and letting go. 

So I have been addressing the things that do not work, the things that do, and making some decisions about what I am going to do with the remainder of my life. I had to change direction or I was going to end up where I was heading. I was heading towards not having accomplished a couple of my personal goals. I have decided I would rather be more successful than that. So I am going back to posting the blog once a week, with a scan of what ever artwork I have completed. 

I have a new job that I like, and that I hope I will have until I choose not to work any more. I have friends I like, I live in an amazing place. My animals are healthy, I am more or less healthy myself. Age catches up with us all, lets leave it at that. I have been doing some course work through the local Scientology Mission, and found it to be really helpful in determining ways to change direction. And no it is not a cult. Self-Realization Fellowship is the spiritual and religious avenue I had been looking for. I actually get to do Graphic Design for them in addition to finding peace and joy from the spiritual practice. And  I work in the kitchen on Sundays and for any event we have. Life is good. I just want to tweek the direction a little bit. 

Happy New Year 

Time Flies

"It's frustrating when you hear you're overqualified. What do you say? 'But sir, I need this job!' "

Carmen Polson, 49, unemployed since May 2002

Arizona Republic

It takes an hour to fill out an online application depending on the company and site. You do all of this, send off your resume and hear the sound of a flushing toilet. I have tried every trick in the book. I send out on average of one app and resume a day. Despite my experience and work ethic --  nothing. It could be my skill set scares people off. Yeah, that Graphic Design degree means my emails and letters might look nicer. It means when I design a flier it is going to rock, not just sit on the wall. Everything that other candidate can do I can do just as well or better. I show up on time, I work hard and I have the quintessential reliable transportation. 

Did you know that when you google yourself, it includes  photos? Those nice social networking sites that encourage you to have a professional portrait. They can take one look at that portrait and tell if they want you to come and work for them. "Oh, darn. She is so qualified, but look, she is over 50." It is now possible to track someone back to their childhood, and see every where they have lived, worked, gone to school. Everything is right there. This is why I am pursuing self employment. I have too many skills, and I am not going to waste them. 

So just to get it out there: I am 60, I am damned talented, I am reliable to a fault. What exactly is it that you want again?

Smirking back atcha!!

Spring is leaping

Piles of wood chips

The First Iris

Nothing on earth makes one believe in renewal and rebirth in whatever area of your life like the first flower of spring. I have been watching flowers bloom for almost two months. I find there are two, however, that signal "Spring is Here" for me: Iris and Calla Lilies. This is a photo of the first iris to bloom. The yard is now full of them. It appears to have been a good year for iris.

I was laid off in February, so while I am looking for another job I am working in my yard and doing other things that I have not had time for. I am feeling a sense of renewal and rebirth. I am rediscovering parts of my self that have been waiting for the right amount of time,  and opportunity. I am exploring a few new things: diving into reuse art with more enthusiasm,  and revisiting web design, hopefully for the last time.

This year I am rotating the vegetable garden and putting beans where the tomatoes were and planting new herbs. The spring onions are going in late because we had the tree guys in again, and we needed to move wood for them to chip, in addition to the dead trees they turned into chips. So no only do I have more space :->, I will have wood chips for my walkways. Those are two piles of wood chips from three dead Cottonwood trees on the river bank, plus the wood from the tree we pruned two years ago. I also have sun where it has not bee before. Not a bad thing!

The extra time I have on my hands has given me opportunity to investigate things I normally would not have time to do. There is luxury in not having to be anywhere specific. I finally visited Morning Sun Herb Farm in Vacaville, which I recommend highly. They have an assortment of herbs, vegetables, perennials, and stuff that will appeal to all gardeners. AND they have three very cute donkeys, and a cool Tuxedo Cat that sleeps on the counter at the register in a box. I went for two things - white sage and tarragon. Found both, and a few other things -- Life is good.

Have a great week. April Fools Day is in a week. Beware your jokester friends!

OK, so new beginnings ...

I have been unemployed for two weeks, this is the beginning of the third. I have moments of concern, but not the panicked, OMG, the sky is falling feeling I have had in the past when I found myself out of a job.  I have come to the conclusion that I have too many skills and talents to not be able to make things work somehow. I am going back to posting on Mondays. and will be doing so on a regular basis from now on. So I will keep this short. 

I'm Back

I just took an unexpected, very long break from the blog. On September 15th I pulled a rug out of the bathtub after washing it and pulled a muscle, it got my attention but it didn't feel that bad.  September 19th I called in sick to work because I could barely walk. My back went from a slightly uncomfortable pulled muscle to full blown "OMG what have I done to my back in five days??!" Between my back, which laid me out flat for a week and a half, trying to reconcile my medical insurance, which is through Sacramento County and included getting paper work signed so I could go back to work, plus a misunderstanding about procedures with the company I work for I was off 3 days short of a month. It is a long and convoluted story of everything that could go wrong did go wrong. All because I called in for three days. I have, never, in my life called out sick for three days. I had no idea. My back is in general fine, but I still can't sit for more than about half an hour without being really stiff.

The day before I went back to work, IADT Sacramento was informed that the campus would be closing, which means we stop signing new students and teach out what we have now. They began by immediately laying off the admissions department. Before anyone at work had a chance to call me I got a message from a friend who is a student. I thought it was a bad rumor. My boss called me immediately when I emailed him. I am scheduled to stay until the last student walks out the door in 2017, but the director of ADmissions left on the 22nd, the campus President is leaving the 31st. most of the lead faculty will be gone by the end of Term 2 which is in July. They are starting with the un-needed, and the highest paid. My job is safe because of one thing I do. I am a certified test administrator for Pearson Vue testing. We open the campus on Fridays for outside testing. Anything and everything from CBest, to Cisco. If it hadn't been for that, this past Friday would have been my last day, if not before.

Tuesday of last week a bad tooth reared its ugly head and I spent the subsequent days and the weekend timing pain medication and food, with an ice pack on my jaw. This morning when they were trying to get the crown off, the entire tooth popped out, apparently followed by a gush of ... well, you know. A nice gold crown with little roots intact and all. It hurts but not like it did. They are sterilizing the whole thing I am going to pick it up tomorrow. Thought I would put it on a chain ... I don't know what I am going to do with it.

Sunday I made the cookies for Church. It was a Halloween theme light food thing. I hope everyone has a blast on Halloween, and that what ever you dress up as, has great impact. I promise more interesting blogs in the future. Please for give me for the absence.