Day 21

Since I missed two, I hope I am on 21.

"You can't just ask customers what they want and then try to give that to them. By the time you get it built, they'll want something new."

— Steve Jobs: was an American inventor and businessman

I found all these posts I had somehow saved as drafts and am posting them. The things stress will do. 

Day 11

Let each man exercise the art he knows.

Aristophanes (450 BC - 388 BC), 

Day 6

"Life is a perpetual instruction in cause and effect"

- Emerson

This is the logo and device design for the advertisement I posted yesterday. The program is Adobe Illustrator 5.0

Staying on top of everything.

This is the first thing I started working on right after I was loaned a lap top by a friend. I was stunned by how much I had forgotten since July. BTW Adobe Illustrator (CS6) There are things that do not work well with this. But I think posting it, fixing it and reposting will be really valuable. So this is a draft. obviously everything about the cat needs to be lighter. 

I had a a whole story around this image. The first is that the Bunny Slippers look terrified. It dawned on me that when the cat opened the door there was something disconcerting there. So disconcerting that it scared the slippers too. Then I thought, well, maybe it is embarrassing to see friends at the door when you have a strange robe on and bunny slippers and everyone, including the slippers are just mortified. Friends should really call before they stop by. 

Goodbye 2012

I must have been sidetracked. Good riddance 2012

“I used to spend so much time reacting and responding to everyone else that my life had no direction. Other people's lives, problems, and wants set the course for my life. Once I realized it was okay for me to think about and identify what I wanted, remarkable things began to take place in my life.”
― Melody Beattie, The Language of Letting Go: Hazelden Meditation Series

I honestly don't know anything about Hazelden Meditation. I liked the quote. I watched a wonderful Ted talk the other night about a boy who loved to draw and tell stories. He talked about his struggled, the people who influenced him and his ultimate successes, and as he talked I found myself getting more and more emotional. He is now a well know children's book author. When he finished I burst into tears, that turned into long hard sobbing.  I think there are a lot of things tied to why I cried so long and hard. Mostly that I have been derailed from the career I wanted. And all the people, and circumstances I have let derail it. I have always known what I wanted to do, I have just never believed it was more important than the other people, or the other considerations in my life. And I know that it is just a repeating pattern. Going way back. Putting off what I wanted to do, for what someone else thought or needed me to do. And all the fear that follows in the footsteps of putting off dreams for yet another day hoping that things will change and you will have time, money,  or courage or the something that you don't have now. Not because I believe any of it, but because people that I respected did and they are still in my head, whispering in my ear. 

By-the-way, if you haven't heard it has been cold in CA. I took this photograph of a young cabbage plant yesterday, late in the  morning. those are ice crystals. Beautiful. I spent a wonderful day  today cutting back freeze burned cannas. It was warm in the sun, and a glorious day. Yesterday I saw two huge flocks of Sandhill Cranes heading south. Their shifting "V" pattern glittered. I felt blessed.